Friday, June 24, 2011

short thoughts, short time, short guy

real quick, because i'm a bit short on time.

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.  life is such a conundrum sometimes, as i was running from one end of the floor at work to the other; for this patient's whatever and that patient's whatnot i caught myself thinking about how we all live in such a rat race.   we all are seemingly caught up in getting to the next event, getting off to the next weekend, or days off, or vacation, or holiday, or whatever.  i myself am very guilty of this.  my train of thought usually is thinking about the next cool whatnot that kim and i  have planned.  right now i'm pretty pumped to be heading home to ohio for a few days.  the problem with all of this is we keep looking forward to the next event and then the next event and so on until we end up old and dead, or old and out of our minds, or young and dying, or young and dead.  morbid, right?   incredibly morbid, but being in the healthcare field really puts shit  in perspective.  i mean, i take care of so many patients that have really gotten the shaft, yet to me it's just a job, just a paycheck, just another spin on the hamster wheel to pay the man.

so take a minute and get it all in perspective, take time to enjoy the now, the right now, the next 5 minutes.  for me its 8 am, and i'll be in bed within the next half hour and sleep the day away and get up and go to work.  right now all that's on my mind is getting through this next shift and then heading home, but why not enjoy the right now?  the freedom of plunking down in front of my computer and spewing my thoughts in this wonderful world where i can do that.  enjoy the fact that my wife came and picked me up from work because it was pouring down rain and i rode my bike and she kicks ass.  that we are both blessed with good health and a wonderful marriage.

i really hate how this sounds, it's like one of those silly emails telling you to count your blessings, but really you're just counting through the endless work/school/whatever emails you need to delete to get through the day.  it really is like one of those emails, but this time to me it's much more, count the good things in life.

i get to go home to ohio and visit my awesome family.  send out a fb message right before the weekend and tell the guys we need to go get a beer.  a lot of people don't even have those kind of opportunities.  so thanks to all those people out there who make this stuff possible, all the good friends who make my life amazing.

thanks.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

welcome home and other ramblings

So it looks like the Rhodes family is officially movin' south.  Maybe it was just the inspiration of a song by the great KoL (note sarcasm), or maybe it's because of the times.

Dad just landed a job at a construction company in South Carolina, near Greenville (pronounced greenvull).  And Lee is moving down with Kim and I in Asheville.  This is a pretty huge change for all involved, granted Kim and I are pretty much settled in and all, but it's still a big deal.

Thoughts.

My thoughts on this whole southern migration thing are only positive.  Things have been so good for Kim and I down here.  The people in the south for the most part are quite a bit nicer when first meeting you.  People in the north are very kind, but often cold, distant, and busy when passing someone by or meeting someone for the first time.  Northerners are cool, they (I mean we) might just be a bit too hurried and preoccupied.  Asheville is also a bit of an outdoor mecca.  The cycling here is fantastic, quiet mountain roads abound.  The hiking is gorgeous, plenty of streams and mountain tops to explore.  Also I can completely fulfill my dreams of living a hipster life to the max... If only my hair wasn't the limiting factor to my hipness.

The negatives...
Life is great down here in hipsterdom, but believe it or not there are some things I don't like.  The biggest problem is the distance from family and friends back home in Ohio.  Of course, we knew this would be an issue and it's one we are willing to deal with.  I'm not sure why people are willing to sacrifice things like this, I don't think we are sacrificing friends, but in some ways that's what it feels like.  Families and relationships are what makes adulthood so complicated.  The other stuff (i.e. bills, jobs, taking care of a home, etc) is really just fluff in comparison.  Adults never really cover the relationship and family thing; they tell you to get good grades, be a good person, and find a good job.  But really that's not what it comes down to.  Life really seems to be about finding the correct balance, some how meeting your expectations and dreams for life, but still satisfying the needs of family and friends. I guess that is why marriage is so great, you have a sidekick and a best friend that will always be at your side.  The two of you are free to dream together and fulfill God's promises for the two of you, because now the two of you are one.  

The following is not an apology, simply a statement.  The above definitely is a rambling, or even a stream of thought, I would love to try an polish, dive deeper into it.  For now though, it's all of got.  And since this isn't a paper for Kandel or Baxter, it's more than enough.